Written in July

Months ago I was visiting my sister in another state. I met some really cool people while I was there, and most likely I won't see any of them again. I wrote this after a really cool experience, but never posted it. So here it is now.


One Sunday while I was visiting, we were at church, my sister goes to a pretty big church, you know one with a main floor and a big balcony type second story to fit more people. And this awesome worship song was on, I had never heard it before. Although now I've heard it and sung it many times:

"Our God is greater
 Our God is stronger
 God you are Higher than any other
 Our God is Healer
 Awesome in Power
 Our God
 Our God"
- Chris Tomlin, Our God

For the first time I got a glimpse of Heaven. Every christian I have ever met will be there, even the ones I only knew for a few minutes or days. And we will be really worshiping. Truly truly. Full of God's love for him and for each other.

I know there are negative thoughts that can branch off of that. And questions and details. And perhaps it is a little disconnected for your topic. But it is the story that came to mind with this post. There is so much soft, powerful, joy in this memory for me. I hope it comes across at least a little.

Think about it in terms of you, all the people you love terribly, and your best worship memory. Blend it together with whatever strongest sense of God's presence you can think of. That was my taste of heaven.

Which maybe makes it a little more okay to say goodbye sometimes.

Better is open rebuke 

than hidden love.

Wounds from a friend can be trusted.
~Proverbs 27

It's better to get in someone's face than watch them die. 

I'd rather you yell at me now, than have to ask you why you didn't tell me later.

I hope we remember.

Though I Walk Through the Valley of the Shadow of Death...

I glow.

Or at least I want to. I've grown a fair amount in the last six months, but I have so much farther to go. One thing I've realized is that I keep waiting for life to start, I think I need to get through school, then life will start. Or wait until I get married, then life will really start, but neither is true, Life is now. We have no idea how much time we're going to get so we better get on it. I don't want to play it safe anymore, but I don't want to get toasted by the bad stuff either. I don't think there is a happy medium, so here's to bubble popping, risk taking, and God trusting.

-gulp- 

Thoughts on Time

Well well, I have some time to kill, and I haven't posted for a while so, I guess that is what I shall do.
I'm not quite sure what to write about, so I’ll take that phrase I just used a second ago: I have some time to kill.
Where did that come from? I don't really want to kill time. I suppose I meant I have some extra, but there is no such thing as extra time with God. Time is something to be used, something needed to grow, grow closer to God.
Isn't it a crazy thought that God is outside of time? Like being outside a house? Yet at the same time he is inside us?
My head is getting a bit confused, and I’m not very skilled at articulating ideas, so I shall leave you with those ideas to chew on for now. :)

's goin' on (sgoinon!)

Well I probably won't post much now that it's summer, but I'll get on and comment and post when i can. Since I'm on today I thought I'd leave a quick thought for y'all, Lately God has really been showing love to me. He's been showing me my love (from him) towards people in my life, and complete strangers. And also he's been showing me how loved i am, and it's amazing. love truly is the best thing, it's gotten me happy tear-ie in the last few days, and I'm not a very tear-ie person, at least I try to not be one, so that is kind of intense. Well, I'm off! Thanks for reading. :)

Be Passionate!

Ok, in the catholic tradition today marks the beginning of lent (the forty days leading up to Easter) and usually people give up things like sweets for lent, or types of food, and it's kind of like new years resolutions sometimes it doesn't work out. You're supposed to give up or take up something that will improve you.
Recently God has really been putting passion for him on my heart. So for lent this year I’m going to make it an awesome me and God time. I'm telling you all this in case you'd like to do something between now and Easter too. Making more time for you and God, doing crazy God things, I’m really excited!!
WooHoo God!!!! This is going to be so cool, relationship building with the coolest guy ever! Yay!

3 things about my day? got 'um

Well, lets see. What have I got for you all today. I guess just thoughts on blogs. Would we write differently on here if we knew exactly who was watching? Like if I knew for certain that someone in my family would find this one day would I change what I am typing now (the answer is yes, because originally I was typing something else haha)? Just a thought, because sometimes I sit down to type something to post online, and it is just me and my computer, and I go into journaling mode, and have to remember people will read this. and it should be aimed at them.

I feel random so I am going to allow a topic switch, if this bothers you it will probably happen again in this post and in the course of this blog, so be prepared.
Today I am Thankful for:
+jello
+planes (all types, paper, full scale people holding fly in the air type, the kind in math, etc.)
+glue
+people
+the ability to rock back and forth and side to side

I just flipped open my bible and this is the verse I found, I pray it helps somebody out there, or you needed to hear it.
Isaiah 30:1 "woe to obstinate children," declares the Lord, "to those who carry out plans that are not mine, forming an alliance but not by my spirit, heaping on sin upon sin;
Usually when I am looking up random verses it is because I want to share one with someone. and I always avoid the negative verses. that is what I was thinking about as I typed that up. Do we avoid the side of God that says "No" and admonishes us? I think most definitely we do. Just thoughts, I hope God grows them in your head and in mine, and we can make some sense out of then, but for now I'm off to bed, or rather the idea of getting ready for bed.
:) goodnight!

P.S.
Hey! I just did my planned bible reading for today (going through Hebrews right now) and the first bit totally matched thoughts on Isiah above! So if you're interested, Hebrews 12:1-14! Anyways, really going to bed now. :)

whoops, forgot to title this one...

Well, I've looked at a lot of blogs today, and it just amazed me. I'm not sure I've ever realized how many people are out there. There are so many of us! And there are people in other countries on other continents who listen to the same music and love the same God I do. Yet there are way more who are different. And all of us are so small in comparison with the world we are in. It is such a conflict. I get so wrapped up in my own little corner of the world and so bogged down with the tiny tiny things that seem so big. I'm in a state of amazed confusion, I don't know what the best attitude is. God is big and I limit him for my own comfort since I am small, and I do the same to the world, even though in comparison with him it is minuscule!
To explain my perspective, I'm visiting my sister this weekend I'm in another state. I miss my friends back home, but it is interesting finding life goes on with out them, as so often i try to make them my world.
God is so AMAZING! I can't understand, but that is ok. I just need to trust.