Wednesday, October 21, 2009


    I have finally come to realize the meaning of my quite solitary fall. If you remember this summer I complained in several blogs about how I was not doing anything. And how I needed to be doing something. I was so used to being up and out and with people, that I could not stand anytime going, as I thought, un-used.

    However today I had some "cave-time" as I have deemed time at home, alone with myself. And then later my godmother and I went to walmart. And I had an exceptionaly good time, I listened to the walmart song, found everything exciting, and had a unusually great experience. I decided this was due to the fact I had been online most of the day and had excess energy. And then my thoughts returned to the lines I'd created in my head earlier, what was my cave-time forming me into? Because my cave time is definately shaping me, and I have spent much of it on the internet. I do not want to be shaped by the sites I visit, not that they are bad sites. Just that I would rather be shaped by God. Thusly I need to spend cave-time with God.
    In writing this, I have gotten away from what I started out to write, and come a conclusion I already knew along a different path than last time. So I suppose I should take it in this time.
    Going back to what I intended to write, I have finally learned the importance of time spent alone. Doing activities alone, and spending time alone with my thoughts. And just general quite time spent listening to the world around me, and of course to God. If I want to enjoy boundless time with friends, I need to enjoy cave-time as well. Even better, cave-time enhances my other-time actvities, because it sharpens my me-ness (er- personality) into a chrisper less others-based substance.  Ah the realizations that come after 3 months of rather forced cave-time. I'm glad it has been worth it.


  1. Wow, that's great =) I know that I need to start being more 'me'. I can come up with all of these silly excuses but none of them really mean much. Thanks for posting =) Jesus loves you!

  2. Hey, that is a valuable lesson! It's a hard lesson to learn. I'm at home without a car most days now too. My house is a lot cleaner, the laundry is not as often piled up and the dog is more socialized (as if she needed that). But I feel more at peace too, having time to just be in the quiet and think and pray. I love my back room in the mornings these days just to sit and be quiet and read and pray. NICE. I'll miss it if I ever find a job again.

    Love you!

  3. I like those verses =) thanks for commenting. Jesus loves you! =)


And out of the void a voice came.